WAKE UP CALL!!

There was seriously no sleepinng for me! hehe

The other morning I woke up at like 5:30ish and felt so strongly to check my email!! I was not sure why I mean it was 5:30am on a Saturday morning!! The LAST thing I wanted to do was be awake, and why on earth should I check my email?! But I thought well if going down stairs to check my email would help me to fall back asleep then I will go. But there were no new emails! So pretty much at that point I was like seriously why am I not SLEEPING! So I went back to my bed. I decided that this most be God waking me up so I prayed and asked God to show me why he woke me up. Then it hit me. While I was looking at my emails to my friends I realized that in them I tell them heaps! I talk about things that are good, bad, hard, and serious but I also talk about a lot of silly things or little not really “important” things. God really spoke to my heart that yeah of course he wants me to seek him with the “big things” in my life. God is pleased that I keep going to him with all that’s in my heart. But when I was praying I realized that so much lately I have been giving God my heart desires and giving over my life to him. But I have been leaving him out of everything else. God wants me to talk with him about everything I do. The “big things” and also the “little things”. Because to God what we think to be little or meaningless, to God it’s ALL important! I talk with my bestfriends about everything so why don’t I talk to God about EVERYTHING. God made me the way that I am, so all the things that I do “big” or “little” he wants to be apart of it. If I find something really silly he wants to hear about it. God desires to know me Grayce Elizabeth, he longs for me to let him into ALL the parts of my life the BIG ones but also ALL the LITTLE ones! How cool is that?! I mean this is the God who created the world who made everything, he’s GOD and he wants to be my friend! That’s so amazing! God made us so that we could have relationship with him. He longs to be that bestfriend in my life that I run to with EVERYTHING not just with those "big things" not just when I’m not sure how to take those “big” steps but also he wants to be there when i'm taking those “little” steps! He wants to enjoy everything that I enjoy! I think this is so amazing! So I desire to not just keep letting God into only the “big” things but to also involve him with those “little” things. God is my bestfriend and just like with my friends here I tell them about everything. I tell them about things in my everyday life. About things that are serious but also all the silly things too. I long to always be closer to God then I am with my friends here. I want to yes of course seek him with those choices that affect my future but I always want to let him into my now! I mean like I want him in my everyday life! I want him to seriously be my BESTFRIEND! So even if I think it might be to “little” or “meaningless” for God to want to hear about. I know the truth is that God cares about EVERYTHING I care about so I will let him into my life! ALL the parts of my life! Even though it was 5:30am on a Saturday morning, I’m thankful to God for showing me that to him everything in my life is meaningful and important! God is just pretty much amazing! I love him! I love how he speaks to me! If it’s through old emails to friends or through his voice or through the words in the bible! Or whatever way he uses! I just LOVE IT! God truly amazes me more and more. It’s AWESOME! REALLY and TURLY! (in the words of my sister Deborah)

Eunice is coming home to me!

My amazing friend Euince Rebecca Nieuwburg from my dts will be here on September 28. I cant wait! she is coming here to staff with the DTS for 3 years. Eunice is one of my bestfriends and I am so thankful to my Lord that she is in my life! Im so glad that shes going to be here with me fully PUNISHING Chiang Rai! Eunice is a amazing woman of God and she has fed my soul so much! Thank you Jesus for my Mama Newnice! I love you sweetie and I look forward to seeing you again and giving you a huge HUG! Your a wonderful lady and any one who knows you is turly blessed! I sure am to know you! You are going to do amazing here in Thailand because God is with you and he will help you, and lead all your steps! I am here too so we will punish together! I CANT WAIT! I love you Eunice Rebecca! Your a ture blessing on my life! Thank you for being who you are and for becomeing one the bestfriends a girl could have! Your AMAZING! God bless you and I will see you on the 28th!!! :-)

"It is a safe thing to trust Him to fulfill the desire which He creates."

God’s faithfulness....... Is God seriously ever not faithful? I mean seriously I think sometimes when Im laying something into Gods hands I think can I really trust that God will be faithful with this part of my life? Its like in the back of my head I think this will be that one time God wont be faithful to me. How silly is that?! I mean God seriously can’t not be faithful. He IS always faithful. ALWAYS! There has NEVER been a time in my life that God has not been faithful to me. He has and WILL always lead me to where he wants me. Every time I give God more of my life he shows me more about just how FAITHFUL he is. It seems strange to me that I think so often that God won’t be faithful. Time and time again though God reveals to me how faithful he is. I can always trust him with the things I lay down before him. In the book a Beautiful Way by Dan Bauman, he says "there is no fear that can keep us from obeying god" this is so true! I think often my biggest fear is can I really trust God with my life, can I really trust him with the desires of my heart? But even though I have this fear that God might not always be faithful to me (has silly has that fear is) I wont let it keep me from obeying God. God asked me to give my life over to him, to trust him with my heart desires. So even though it’s a bit scary to fully surrender my life over to my Lord, I WILL give it to him. I have said it many times but it’s just so TURE, that Gods BEST is FAR better then my LITTLE good! God has been teaching me a lot lately about faith. Faith that what’s in my heart is from him. Faith to give my heart back to him. Faith to wait patiently for him to fulfill the desires of my heart.

I came across this quote by Amy Carmichael "It is a safe thing to trust Him to fulfill the desire which He creates." . . . . . .WOW is pretty much what I thought when I read that quote! I knew this but I don’t know when I read it was like wow man that’s so true it is SAFE to TRUST God with the desires in my heart, because I gave my heart over to God so what’s there in my heart is what God amazing wonderful God placed there. So I will trust him with them. I will wait on his timing to fulfill them, because his timing is BEST! I mean it is hard though at times to wait for Gods timing, when I would just REALLY like to have those heart desires NOW. but i WILL wait! I will wait not because I have to obey God, but because I long to see why he wants me to wait....understand? I mean like right now just seems like it would be really GOOD to have those desires that are in my heart, but if God is telling me to wait patiently then there most be a really AMZING reason for me to wait. Like he most have something really awesome to show me in the mean time or WHEN I finely receive those heart desires its going to be far more amazing then I would have ever thought! (I believe that it’s both) I don’t have to have fear though to trust him with my heart, because I KNOW that God WILL fulfill what he has promised me. So Im waiting patiently for him to fulfill his promises, and I am learning to be faithful to the promises I make to him! I long to be faithful to God. To not just receive his beautiful faithfulness but to also be faithful to him. So I WILL have FAITH that God will FULFILL those desires in my heart, and I WILL be FAITHFUL to the promises I make to him! Even though it will get hard (has been hard at times) to wait patiently for God to fulfill those desires, I will keep SEEKING him for more faith, trust and patients! So even though it would be really GOOD to have those heart desires NOW, I think waiting for them is better because then it’s not just good but it’s the BEST! I want Gods best for my life. So I will wait PATIENTLY for his timing to FULFILL those desires in my heart!

Patiently waiting!

Giving God my whole life….. Learning how to really do this is a journey all in its self. Sacrificing my hopes and dreams and trusting that if I give God my heart he WILL give me my deepest desires. God is faithful all the time. I know I can trust God with my heart. With my life. With my dreams. With my deep heart desires! With EVERYTHING! Since my last outreach (in dts) God has been teaching me to fully trust him with my heart. Asking me to give over to him my all that I long for. To fully give him all the parts of my life not just the parts that I want to. I long to live a life that’s running after Jesus, a life that’s not my own a life that anything and everything I do would come out of the deep love I have for my God. That Jesus Christ would be the very core of who I am. I long to always trust God with everything! God has been teaching me to fully trust that he knows what he’s doing. Living a life that’s not mine own is really hard at times, but oh my goodness so EXCITEING! I know that I will have the very best because Gods BEST so much better then the little good I can make for myself. So here I am just trying to fully trust God with my life. With all the things in my heart. With my ministry with where I will live, with all that I long to do, even with who I will merry or if I will ever get married. I long more then anything to fully give my life over to my Lord. To truly believe that Gods best really is the BEST! God is so FAITHFUL though! Time and time again he surprises me with things that I never thought of or could even dream of! I know that the life I’m living out is a life that’s all about Jesus! That everything I do is coming out of the love that I have for MY GOD! Even though I really don’t know what tomorrow will bring I know that I CAN trust God with it all! His hands are beautiful and kind and very faithful so I once again place my heart in his hands. Asking him to give me the faith I need to trust him. I know that my heart is for my Lord so I know that whatever may come tomorrow will be the best! That through any hard times I may have that I can trust that God knows what he’s doing. That I can trust that GOD is GOOD ALL THE TIME! That God WILL lead me to where he longs for me to be! I LONG for GODS BEST! God’s ways are far higher then my ways and I long that I will always seek after his beautiful ways!! That he would help me to WAIT PATIENTLY for his timing in everything! God really has been speaking to me a lot lately its been truly amazing! Giving me a true since of peace in his timing. I know and have faith that God takes delight in every detail of my life! (psalm 37:23-24) That even if I stumble I will NOT fall because the Lord IS leading me by the hand! That if I delight in him he will bless me with my deepest desires! (psalm 37:4) I lay my requests before the Lord and wait in expectation. (psalm 5:3) I love my life because well it’s NOT my life its all GODS! I will WAIT PATIENTLY for the Lord!

Jason Upton Lyrics -

I will wait for you, JesusYou're the sun in my horizonAll my hopes in you, JesusI can see you now arising(repeat)

There's a wall that stands in front of meThat I know I just can't climbAnd like an eagle you will carry meIts just a matter of the time

I will wait for you, JesusYou're the son in my horizon All my hopes in you, Jesus I can see you now arising

Evil armies all around me

I believe in the word that promises me So I will wait another day

I will wait for you, JesusYou're the son in my horizon All my hopes in you, JesusI can see you now arising(repeat)

I will wait for you Oh I will wait for youOh the doubt may try to come in The disillusions may try to come in

I believe oh Lord (x3)

In the word that you promised (x3)

I believe it will not end

I believe it will not go

I will wait for you, JesusYou're the son in my horizon All my hopes in you, JesusI can see you now arising

I WILL WAIT FOR YOU LORD!

His Truth

PSALM 139. . .

1 O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. 5 You hem me in--behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men! 20 They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name. 21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord, and abhor those who rise up against you? 22 I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.