Lewis has a twin!

So I have Lewis a little orange cat that I have had for a few months now. Well last week he multiplied!! A cat that looks almost exactly the same has made her self at home. She comes through the little kitty door and she really seems to enjoy sleeping on my couch. Lewis seems to like her too (I think it may be love). It’s just so funny because they look so much alike! Almost to the key. There eyes are different but other then that there almost exactly the same. I don’t think that she will be leaving anytime soon. I have tried locking her outside but then she just sits out the door and cries to be let in. So I guess I have two little orange cats now. I have decided to call her Lorelai. Oh and she is not the only cat that comes around there is a black cat that seems to like my house as well. He has not made it his home yet like Lorelai. Let’s hope it stays that way! I really don’t want to be the neighborhood cat lady! Even though my house seems to have become the neighborhood house for cats! :)

Where is my home?

I’m always missing someone. . . .

I miss so many people it’s almost unbelievable. My heart longs to be with all the people I love. I can't though because I live far from them. Yet then I have close friends here that I would miss if I was not with them. It can be really hard living the life I live. I have family and close friends in America I also have close friends in Australia. I have people all over the world that I love and miss. It’s so hard sometimes. Oh I would love so much to be able to hug my sister again.

Or to sit and talk with my best friends. I love living here in
Thailand but sometimes I really miss other places. How can one person have there heart in so many places. You hear people say

“your home is where your heart is”

So where does that leave me? Where is my home? Thailand, America, Australia? My heart is in each three of those places. How is that possible? My heart is with the Children, yet it is also to be with my friends in Australia and I long so much to be with my family in America.

I know that I am in the place God wants me for now. Don’t get me wrong I love so much living in Chiang Rai. I love my job so
much. I’m so blessed to be doing what I do. The kids bless my life more then words can express. I just guess I’m home sick for the other places where my heart is.

Sometimes God may ask you to walk a harder road but it's the more rewarding road.

I get sad sometimes walking this road and yes I feel pain. There are times that I just want to

give up and not go on. I feel so sacred and alone and all I want is to just stop and give up. It can be so hard to just keep going.

I have been reading the book “Oh, the Places You'll Go” by Dr. Seuss. Yes I know it’s a kids book but I work with kids so what can you do. :-) But anyways the part when he is all alone. When I come to that part of the book God always speaks softly to me that I am NOT alone so when I go on I don’t have to go alone.

He is right there with me.
Even if I cant always feel him. He is always there.

Lately I have been really sad because I miss people I love. I have felt alone. I have been scared and felt like giving up. But on I will go. Even though I so badly miss them I would not change anything about my life. God has blessed me more then I ever thought possible and all I did was say “Lord I give you all of my life” I may miss people deeply and I might even wish sometimes that I could just be with them always.

Where my pain is with missing people there also is my joy.

See I have people all over the world that I love and love me. I have a family that yes misses me but supports the work I do. I have close friends all over that love me and I love. I have so many people to be thankful for. If I had said no to God and stayed in America I would have missed out on my blessings.

I am learning that I can give my life to God and not feel fear but more so I can be excited on the things he will do in my life (the fear does still come in sometimes. I am still human). Because I said to God “I give you all of my life” there are ten beautiful children that I get the blessing of helping to raise. Because I said to God I would go and do anything for you I now have close friends all over the world that I don’t know what I would do with out. I am so blessed because I gave up my life to live the life he has for me. I just came across this quote from C.T Studd

“If Jesus Christ is God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be to great for me to make for him”

This was his life motto and Im trying to make it mine as well. I love God with all of my heart and I trust him with my life. So there really is no sacrifice when walking with him. My heart is to ALWAYS seek after God's heart. He is my heart.

So I guess my home is where my heart is. My heart is God. My home is in him.

Oh, the Places You'll Go!

Oh, the Places You'll Go!

Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own.  And you know what you know.
And YOU  are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets.  Look 'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any
you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there
in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,
don't worry.  Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll  start happening too.

OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don' t
Because, sometimes, you won't.

I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
and Hang-ups
can happen to you.

You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you'll be in a Slump.

And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted.  But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out?  Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF  you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
       The Waiting Place...

...for people just waiting.
Waiting for a  train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

NO!
That's not for you!

Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.

With banner flip-flapping,
once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored.  there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame!  You'll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don't.
Because, sometimes, they won't.

I'm afraid that some  times
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.

All  Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.

And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go
though the weather be foul
On you will go
though your enemies prowl
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike
and I know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never  mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)

KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

---Dr. Seuss

Happy Birthday Gran Anne!

Gran Anne you are so amazing. . .

I love you so much and I thank my Lord that he was so kind to bless me with you for my Grandmother.

The world is a better place with you in it Gran Anne. Your heart is so very big and full of love.

I pray that I can be even half of the person you are. I love you so much.

I pray that your birthday was a wonderful time full of Joy!

I wish I was able to be there with you but you are ALWAYS in my HEART!

I miss the times we had together of watching Gilmore Girls and just talking. All of my life I have looked up to you and prayed that God would give me a heart like yours. You are one of the most amazing people I know.

I miss you so much . . .


I love you so . . .